dear ex-love
mid 2016
dear ex-love
there is no word in this world that is able to explain how much i miss your presence by my side
i am aware that you have mistreated me
that you do not deserve me from all the doings you wronged me
i, am aware as well that i do not want you back
as well as i am aware you do not want me back
as well as i am aware you do not want me back
it is just lately i am feeling lonely and
today i had a terrible headache
i was driving on my own, bearing with this tremendous pain that i decided to turn the car and drove back home
the next thing i know is i have tears running down my face, i whispered your name with consent.
wishing you to be there and breathe the wonder, questioning will i be this lonely if you stayed?
with those tears racing down i sobbed and i was hungry for your warmth of arms, your tender kisses, and your amorous sound of throbbing heart as i lay my head on your chest.
my ex-love,
i was starving for the idea of someone’s presence that is you.
i dreamed of you as an entity that once belonged to me.
soon i realized that some dreams are nightmares in real life.
and some ideas are better left unrealized to keep my world:
sane.
sane.
written dearly,
from your dearest ex-love.
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